November 19, 2013
So much has changed in the short time these pictures were taken, but at the same time it feels as if no time has passed at all. Becoming a mother has been one of the hardest yet most wonderful things I have ever done. Like I said in my first post back to blogging I am finally starting to feel like myself again and that I have a little control over my life.
I hate to admit that these pictures somewhat make me sad, sad because I know how hard life was back then and I am reminded of what a difficult place I was in. But more sad that life has moved so quickly and I feel like I have missed some of it. My baby is growing up so fast and I have to wonder, have I really been enjoying every moment with him? Have I wasted too much of our time together being upset that I was tired and that my job as a mother was hard? I hate to think that I have missed out on part of my life or my babies quickly changing life because of a difficult time I was having.
I'm just grateful that I am feeling like myself again even if it has taken me longer than what others would say is normal, I guess this is part of what I was struggling to share and why it has taken me so long to come back to blogging. I want to share this story so others do not feel alone, but I still feel like my thoughts are a little jumbled and these pictures from the past have helped me realize part of what I've been wanting to say.
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