January 5, 2015
So many good things happened this year and for many many reasons I could say this was a great year. But then of course we will always have trials and for many reasons I could say this was a not so good year. I don't really feel like I can proclaim 2014 as either and that got me thinking...
If nothing particularly bad happened to me this year does this mean that I wasn't enjoying all the good, was I not living in the moment? What was distracting me from enjoying all that 2014 had to offer? I've come to realize there are a few things I do that take away from my happiness, I won't get into that here. But the goals I set for myself last year have really helped me to realize that if I want my situation to change I have to be the one to do it.
Towards the end of the year I had a realization that the main goal I set for myself last January had come to pass. I had put myself out there and at the very end of the year I caught myself thinking "this is how motherhood should be, THIS is what I've been waiting for." I had changed what needed to be changed and stopped waiting for someone to change it for me. Without even realizing it I had found true happiness in being a Mother, and if I'm being honest I am so proud of myself for the steps I have taken this year.
It's helped me to realize that I am stronger than I think I am and can do more than I think I can. So this year instead of making a goal with an exact number or an exact due date, I', make a goal to improve myself in a few ways I thought I never could because it would just be too hard.